“How would you feel if I told you that I love you?”
…uttered by Doctor Boy on the morning of our “reunion” two and a half weeks in the making.
Wow. Um, wow.
My first split-second thought? “But I didn’t do anything…I’ve just been me!”
Bingo.
He loves me for who I am, every day. Wow, really, how did I stumble upon something so utterly close-to-perfect as this? At what feels like exactly the right moment? Blessed.
My second split-second thought? Smiling, as he said “I thought about holding back, I hope it’s not too soon, but as I thought about it in Aruba, I haven’t held back at all so far, so I figured I would just go for it.” My response was “I’m close…I’m falling…close to the edge of the mountain.”
He smiled and kissed me. He was content with that response. He didn’t expect me to immediately say it back.
Truthfully, I have actually found myself almost uttering those words myself, or thinking about them. But I didn’t want it to be a knee-jerk reaction to him saying it, but I do feel it…I am falling…hard. I find it almost hard to believe…I’m falling in love.
Damn, even writing that and reading it makes it sound so much more real.
This is right. Beyond a shadow of a doubt. Doctor Boy is the one I was meant to meet, and the one I’m meant to be with. At this very moment.
I’m falling…hard.
And it feels amazing.
October 18, 2010 at 8:31 am
Congrats friend. I know I am on repeat – but you sooo deserve this!!
October 18, 2010 at 11:15 am
thank you!! XO!
October 18, 2010 at 8:32 am
Whoot, whoot! Keep the love story going! I’m glued to your updates!
October 18, 2010 at 11:16 am
Aw, glad you are enjoying reading the story unfold
October 18, 2010 at 8:43 am
AHHH!!! I could cry I’m so happy for you. LOVE reading this!! It truly is a love story
October 18, 2010 at 11:16 am
There’s no crying in love stories
October 18, 2010 at 9:33 am
I am seriously grinning ear-to-ear!! That is just awesome…and amazing. I will say that my DH and I didn’t wait long before saying it…it was just really, really right
October 18, 2010 at 11:16 am
Thank you so much! It IS awesome, I love every minute of it. But you are right, you usually just know.
October 18, 2010 at 9:38 am
Yay! Major props for holding true to yourself and not jumping the gun before you’re ready.
October 18, 2010 at 11:17 am
Thanks. Yea, it was tempting to just say it back, but I want to say it when I 100% mean it. And I am glad he was cool with that.
October 18, 2010 at 9:43 am
I have chills… and a quick simple tear sprang to my eye, how truely fabulous! I am thrilled for you… you deserve this and are the utter example of “everything happens for a reason”… You also cement my firm belief in fate and that no matter which path you choose… the right road will ultimately intersect, always getting you “home”!!!
October 18, 2010 at 11:17 am
Aww, so sweet. your comment gave me chills…such wonderful words. Couldn’t have said it better myself!
October 18, 2010 at 10:00 am
Goosebumps!!!!!!!!
October 18, 2010 at 11:17 am
aww…me too, friend
October 18, 2010 at 10:12 am
I am so happy for you!!!!!
October 18, 2010 at 11:18 am
thank you so much!!
October 18, 2010 at 11:02 am
Aww! I’m so happy for you. Send some of that love luck to Pittsburgh, please. And have fun!
October 18, 2010 at 11:18 am
Thanks friend! I certainly will send the vibes, they’re on their way!
October 18, 2010 at 11:28 am
YAY!! Love it! Just love it!
October 18, 2010 at 4:18 pm
thanks friend…now we just gotta get you to meet him finally!
October 18, 2010 at 11:54 am
Congratulations on your first post-divorce L-word! And a boyfriend, too!
Your posts are becoming increasingly ecstatic. My only fear is that if this keeps up, you will explode from euphoria. And get swoony Jolene parts all over DocBoy.
Enjoy it!
October 18, 2010 at 12:00 pm
Ha ha ha! So true!
October 18, 2010 at 12:03 pm
Thanks Snark, good point – this IS my first post-divorce L word, and so ironic as it fell on the anniversary of the start of my wedding/honeymoon in Kauai, four years ago. No swoony parts will be exploding, I will make sure of that
(but LOL!)
October 18, 2010 at 11:59 am
Ditto on the goosebumps!
Hooray!!!
October 18, 2010 at 12:02 pm
thank you so much!!! XO!
October 18, 2010 at 2:57 pm
Honestly, I was afraid DB would come back from Aruba and everything would have changed. (What does that say about me?) I am so happy that’s not the case. I think you’re absolutely right – this feels magical because you’ve been yourself and that’s who he loves.
October 18, 2010 at 3:07 pm
Thanks Mandy…that IS interesting that you feared that. It hadn’t even crossed my mind (what does THAT say about the way I’m feeling about Doctor Boy, right? Secure is a good thing!). It does feel magical, I love that.
October 18, 2010 at 3:15 pm
Holy crap. I just got butterflies for you! This is so crazy cool to hear. It gets both hand clapping and butt bouncing.
October 18, 2010 at 4:19 pm
Aww, so exciting, and I love how excited you are too! Hand clapping AND butt bouncing?! Wow, that’s huge
October 18, 2010 at 4:59 pm
Aww….so sweet. It made me think about the first time I said those words to CBG…such a magical moment.
Enjoy this…soak it in…you deserve it!
October 18, 2010 at 6:40 pm
Aww, so glad it’s conjuring up happy memories for you and CBG as well. I am most certainly soaking it in, with perma-grin firmly planted
October 18, 2010 at 5:51 pm
So, so, so incredibly happy for you! You deserve ALL of this! xoxo
October 18, 2010 at 6:41 pm
thank you so much! I am touched by everyone’s happiness for me! XO!
October 18, 2010 at 5:59 pm
Very happy for you. Fingers crossed that things continue on this beautiful journey.
October 18, 2010 at 6:41 pm
Thanks for the visit and comment CBG, I feel honored
And yes, fingers and toes crossed for happiness ongoing!
October 18, 2010 at 6:37 pm
yes ma’am. so, so glad it’s working out beautifully for you! it’s such a nice feeling.
October 18, 2010 at 6:42 pm
It REALLY is a nice feeling. Indescribable.
October 18, 2010 at 8:03 pm
Can I say “I told you so” now?
I told you so.
I’m glad you’re both feeling this way, and I’m glad you’re ready for it.
I would have gasped, then screamed, then run like hell… I am so not there.
October 18, 2010 at 8:09 pm
Yes, you get the award for “I told you so!” Happy now?
Hey, you said YOU were in love with Doctor Boy when I was telling you about him initially, if I recall…
October 18, 2010 at 10:12 pm
Ohhhhh right, I did.
Well, I forfeit.
You’re welcome.
October 19, 2010 at 6:47 am
Just perfect. Absolutely perfect.
What if everything gets fixed on my end and we’re both happy at the SAME TIME?!
Fingers crossed! Big hugs.
October 19, 2010 at 7:54 am
Thank you Nicki! I would LOVE it if we were BOTH happy at the same time…let’s work on that
XO!
October 19, 2010 at 8:21 am
So happy for you, Jolene!
October 19, 2010 at 8:28 am
thank you so much!
October 19, 2010 at 1:29 pm
This just puts a smile on my face to read this! Congratulations, girl – you deserve every bit of this happiness!
October 19, 2010 at 1:50 pm
Aww! Thank you so much!! Your comments make me smile
October 19, 2010 at 2:08 pm
so, so, SO happy for you!!!!! so is he gonna do a guest post too??? i want to get his side of the story too!
October 19, 2010 at 3:06 pm
Haha,I never thought of that! Maybe I’ll do one of those posts soliciting input from everyone on Q’s they’d like to ask him and then post responses from him here. Not a bad idea
And thanks for being so supportive!! XO!
October 19, 2010 at 3:03 pm
Love your blog, it’s fab. I’m loving the love story with Doctor Boy. You’ve given me hope that my prince is on his way.
October 19, 2010 at 3:07 pm
thanks so much, and glad you like it. If I can give you hope that he’s out there, I am so glad. It’s taken two years to find, but I’m glad I held out for the best.
October 19, 2010 at 8:05 pm
Awesome, friend. Just awesome.
Wow.
October 20, 2010 at 7:56 am
thank you so much – means a lot.
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