Divorced. Past tense. There you have it. Well, that was certainly a surreal experience. As today is quote Friday, I wanted to use something that captures the last 10+ months, and this one fits the bill, because it also feels like it could be my anthem, if I were to ever have one
“Someday everything will make perfect sense. So, for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason.”
While divorce never quite makes sense, the “someday” part is here…after going through all of the pain, confusions and sadness, and emerging on the other side a happier, stronger, more confident, observant, faithful woman, I wouldn’t change what happened for the world. And I know that probably still sounds a bit strange, but I wouldn’t. Just walking into the courthouse with Pete (since, did I mention, he wanted to drive together to the courthouse? Strange, yes, but apparently, not so strange for us!) today, I felt like I was the leader, I was taking change, and he was following. I’m struck by how not different he is, and as I’ve mentioned before, that’s the part that is dissapointing, because I have learned so much from this, but I still don’t think he has learned much from it, or really still knows WHY he did it. But that’s for him to figure out, not me, I am settled with it, I am at peace with it, and I am content. Blissfully content. Because I know everything happens for a reason and God is watching over me and this was written as part of my journey in life, and I feel I’ve conquered it successfully and proven my faith to God, and to myself, through all of this. I feel empowered and incredibly happy right now.
And I can’t wait to celebrate with some good friends tonight for a very fun weekend ahead, and I thank all of my close friends and family for all of their support, because without you, I would never have made it. You are everything to me, and I love you all!
…today is where my book begins, the rest is still unwritten.”