I heard from a friend of mine that I haven’t talked to for a few months and she asked, “so, how’s dating?”

Uh. It’s not.

Sort of reminded me that I’m not dating. I’m not in a relationship. I’m not really doing anything. But work. But Kick. (yes, I am exaggerating a wee bit for drama, of course I am doing social things too!). I’ve surpassed a lot of milestones in the last six months and am sort of just, well, feeling stagnant.

As I was reading Nicki’s post from yesterday over at Suddenly Singles, about anger, and feeling like she was backsliding, and then her feedback to my blog yesterday, around “just wanting to start this new life already,” I can totally relate, because, suddenly, I am sort of feeling the same way. Not to discount all of the realizations, all of the milestones, all of the dating (and ensuing realizations from those dates!), but right now, I’m just sort of here, doing my thing, but feeling stagnant, not learning a heck of a lot, not meeting potential partners through dates, just here.

Not to be a downer tonight, but I’m just feeling “hmmph” (not sure how to describe it other than that!). I’m still happy, I’m still enjoying life, I just want something to happen. I want love, I want companionship, I want some excitement. The excitement I was getting from dating, and I’m still on the hunt for the other two (love, companionship).

Damn you self-imposed dating hiatus. Damn you!


But, on a bright note, I had my highest daily hit rate yesterday (over 400!) and hit 25K…nice milestone, if I do say so myself 😉