Lately, I’ve more and more felt like I’m facing a crossroad – on the verge of change, and sometimes it feels scary, and sometimes it feels like the next natural step for me.
Sure, that sounds vague, but it’s something that’s been building within me, as I’ve felt stagnant at times, and like my learnings and growth are slowing. And yes, that’s a natural progression as I continue to forge beyond divorce and starting the “year of me” anew, but I want to keep learning BIG, get out of my comfort zone and face major change, challenge, and strength. While I won’t allude to anything specific, I’m sure some of you may be able to read between the lines a little bit. And there’s no definite crossroad in my path at the moment, but I’ve officially decided that I want change, and part of me craves it. Something I never before felt, or would want to stare down. Funny how things change, huh?
I think new fitness challenges like Group Kick has been huge for me, in terms of facing a mega challenge head on. It’s still something I battle with, but I want it – almost more than anything (at least anything recently!). This morning’s class was good, I was focused on my form and technique, which I think got a little in the way of my cuing, but I did ‘aight 😉 I’m just so focused on that taping (which has been pushed out a bit, probably end of March?) and rocking it, and certifiying so I can say that I did it, I made it. I can do it – right??
And then…the next challenge? That looming half marathon. Eek.
The other challenge I’m facing? CBE. In a good way. Date #4 (or 5, or 6, or 7, depending on how you count the LAST date) is looming…hoping for this weekend, and the more we talk, email and text, the more I like him. And that scares me just a little. Another crossroad looming? Time will tell. I’m not in a rush, but this definitely feels different than anyone else I’ve dated. Even boy #9 (wow, in comparison, that whole thing now feels completely different to me! more on that later). Hmm.
Yes, I realize – my post is sort of all over the place, yet sort of cohesive, no? 🙂