Lately, I’ve more and more felt like I’m facing a crossroad – on the verge of change, and sometimes it feels scary, and sometimes it feels like the next natural step for me.
Sure, that sounds vague, but it’s something that’s been building within me, as I’ve felt stagnant at times, and like my learnings and growth are slowing. And yes, that’s a natural progression as I continue to forge beyond divorce and starting the “year of me” anew, but I want to keep learning BIG, get out of my comfort zone and face major change, challenge, and strength. While I won’t allude to anything specific, I’m sure some of you may be able to read between the lines a little bit. And there’s no definite crossroad in my path at the moment, but I’ve officially decided that I want change, and part of me craves it. Something I never before felt, or would want to stare down. Funny how things change, huh?
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I think new fitness challenges like Group Kick has been huge for me, in terms of facing a mega challenge head on. It’s still something I battle with, but I want it – almost more than anything (at least anything recently!). This morning’s class was good, I was focused on my form and technique, which I think got a little in the way of my cuing, but I did ‘aight ๐ย I’mย just so focused on that taping (which has been pushed out a bit, probably end of March?) and rocking it, and certifiying so I can say that I did it, I made it. I can do it – right??
And then…the next challenge? That looming half marathon. Eek.
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The other challenge I’m facing? CBE. In a good way. Date #4 (or 5, or 6, or 7, depending on how you count the LAST date) is looming…hoping for this weekend, and the more we talk, email and text, the more I like him. And that scares me just a little. Another crossroad looming? Time will tell. I’m not in a rush, but this definitely feels different than anyone else I’ve dated. Even boy #9 (wow, in comparison, that whole thing now feels completely different to me! more on that later). Hmm.
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Yes, I realize – my post is sort of all over the place, yet sort of cohesive, no? ๐
March 4, 2010 at 7:51 pm
Jolene, you just have a lot of balls in the air and that’s scary and exciting at the same time. I hope this weekend brings good things. Best, Pippi
March 4, 2010 at 8:02 pm
I guess I sort of do, huh? Maybe I’m an overachiever, but I’m in a state of craving change, so here goes nuthin, sorta kinda ๐ Thanks for good luck on the weekend!
March 4, 2010 at 8:00 pm
Ahhh… I remember a time when I felt like this. It was a good feeling because I knew I was getting a fresh start. The last year and a bit since then have been great for me- I hope it works out the same for you!
March 4, 2010 at 8:04 pm
Thank you so much! Hope so too ๐
March 4, 2010 at 8:13 pm
Sounds like you’re ready for whatever change comes your way, which is really half the battle. I hope the universe brings you plenty of happy surprises.
March 4, 2010 at 8:14 pm
Thanks Simone – an honor to have you comment, love your blog!! And thank you – universe beware!! ๐
March 4, 2010 at 9:30 pm
strange how we know when something is different huh? And that is when it scares us. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. And I’m jealous about your dedication to working out. I’m a start and stopper.
March 5, 2010 at 8:50 am
Haha – a start and stopper – that’s a common one for many, I guess I just keep going and if I stop I realize how easy it IS to stop. The crossroads of life does feel scary, but a good scary too!
March 4, 2010 at 10:31 pm
Crossroads can oftentimes be scary…but you have to just take the chance ๐
March 5, 2010 at 8:52 am
exactly right, thanks for visiting Lakia!
March 5, 2010 at 2:39 am
Isn’t it about time you started your training for that pie eating contest at the county fair? I mean, come on… pie!
Now *that’s* a big challenge. And it will definitely make you a bigger person for having tried it.
(See, when you’re vague, you leave a lot of possibility for misinterpretation… unless, of course, I’m correct in my interpretation!)
March 5, 2010 at 8:50 am
Damn, INRIS, you got me!! It IS a pie eating contest! Apple, in fact. I will gain 50 lbs trying but dammit, I’ll eat that pie ๐ (wise guy!)
March 5, 2010 at 5:15 am
I so feel the same way, and it’s scary but invigorating at the same time. And I am also signed up to a half marathon challenge (in October, so luckily I have some time to prepare). Here’s to good things ahead!
March 5, 2010 at 8:52 am
good luck! Mine is in late September!
March 5, 2010 at 6:00 am
I don’t understand why anyone would torture themselves like that ON PURPOSE, but I support your drive and desire to do so. (In reference to the marathon, not the dating. The dating I understand completely. Who doesn’t want to find someone that balances them out, makes time together enjoyable, and completes their life without consuming it.)
It’ll all come together in time!
March 5, 2010 at 8:51 am
Nicki, you’re a riot – I don’t call it torture, I call it challenge ๐ c’mon, hop it and join me, it’s not so bad! ๐
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