But I am tested.
I’m really tested right now…to choose trust and faith and stay in trust and faith…that God is working “behind the scenes” to answer my prayers. My prayers for Nala.
I had to take her back to the vet today, as last night, she started to get very lethargic last night, and very much not herself, the kitty that got her personality back in the last week from the medication she was on. The medication ran out last night and it was clearly why she wasn’t herself, but I became very anxious, scared, and worried in an instant, and suddenly my faith and trust had completely vanished.
As Pete actually told me today, I need to control my anxiety and worry, because I can’t control this, I can just support her, help her and make her feel better as best I can.
And I know that.
But I just want to solve it. And I can’t. And that kills me. Breaks my heart. I love my cats fiercely. We’ve been through so much together, and it’s just totally jarring.
But I know I need to keep my faith and trust strong, continue my prayers and stay calm and just do what I can do to help her and love her. She’s on another round of medication, for a possible upper respiratory infection, or virus (she’s got a bit of the sniffles and runny nose), or any other infection she may have, plus a steroid that should also help, and an amino acid that can help counteract viruses and illness as well.
Being on my own, it’s going to be tough to give her the pills and make sure she’s getting what she needs because I am 1) not good at giving her pills and 2) without an extra set of hands, that becomes increasingly difficult. But, I have my mom and sister to help me, thankfully, and Pete has offered as well, so I am going to be as strong as I can, and trust that God has a plan. I may be tested, but I need to keep my faith strong.
Easier said than done…but I know I need to.
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Today, shake off the temptation to get discouraged during the waiting process. Shake off offense, shake off discouragement. Remember, all it takes is one touch of God’s favor to take you years ahead. Keep standing, keep believing, keep hoping because the answer is on its way the moment we pray!
Heavenly Father, thank You for hearing me the moment I pray. Today I choose to trust that You are working behind the scenes on my behalf no matter what I see in the natural. I will praise You today and always because You are faithful. I love You and bless You. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.
June 15, 2010 at 6:48 pm
I used to have to give my cat pills 3x a day, and you know what worked like a charm? I put the pill (has to be small) in a little ball of cream cheese and he licked it right up. He was so excited about the cream cheese he’d just swallow it whole – along with the pill! I don’t know what I would have done otherwise.
Hugs to you and little Nala!
June 15, 2010 at 7:18 pm
thank you for the suggestion!! That is a great idea. I don’t have any cream cheese, but she LOVES it, so I will definitely try that. Thanks for the encouragement, so much.
June 15, 2010 at 7:30 pm
Once again, Joel Osteen to the rescue, I’m so glad it spoke volumes to you this morning, I know it shouted at me when I opened that email and read it. Hang in there sister…you know I’d do anything (and then some) to take this on for you so you didn’t have to go through yet another challenge, but since I can’t, I’ll be as faithful and as strong for you (and Nallls) as I possibly can. You got this…I promise. xoxo
June 15, 2010 at 7:35 pm
thanks sis… your support and encouragement is really helpful and giving me the strength I don’t feel I have a good handle on right now.
June 15, 2010 at 7:41 pm
I so hope everything turns out okay. I’ve been keeping updated on your blog for awhile now. Poor Nala (love her name by the way)! Also, I loved the quote on discouragement. It was very comforting to me today. Thank you.
June 15, 2010 at 7:45 pm
Aw, thank you! I love a new blog “lurker” that I didn’t know was reading. So sweet of you as well…Nala is a great name isn’t it? I love it too. And I’m so glad the quote was good for you too. I’m going to start reading your blog too!
June 15, 2010 at 9:09 pm
I am thinking of you Nala:) oxo
June 15, 2010 at 9:10 pm
🙂 You and Nala oxoxox
June 16, 2010 at 11:52 am
thank you so much!
June 15, 2010 at 9:14 pm
I’m so sorry about your day. I wish I had helpful hints, but all I know is what to do wtih geckos. Yes, I know that is random. It is so hard as we go through these moments to have trust and faith. I hate that mine waivers so much but we will understand some day. Love the quote.
June 16, 2010 at 8:01 am
Geckos, really? Thank you friend, I’m trying to keep my faith strong, but like you said, it does waiver, and it’s a daily process.
June 15, 2010 at 9:51 pm
All I can say…take time to relax. Know that I’m thinking of you. Wishing you weren’t suffering.
*hugs*
June 16, 2010 at 8:02 am
Thanks Nicki, relaxing is difficult, I just feel very anxious and uptight, but I’m trying to just breathe and get through.
June 15, 2010 at 11:28 pm
I will say a prayer for Nala. I know what you mean about it being difficult to care for them without another helping hand. My two girls, my dog and cat, are my life and I can only imagine what you’re going through. I hope that the meds work to help Nala.
June 16, 2010 at 8:02 am
thank you so much, I just wish she could talk and tell me what’s wrong. Hoping the meds work too, she ate them in her food today, and she seems perkier. So far, good signs.
June 16, 2010 at 8:03 am
Sometimes knowing and being able to do are 2 different things. You know you can’t control what’s going on, but that doesn’t make it easier to try to trust. We’ve had to go through very trying times with 2 of our past pups (and my dogs are my children) so I feel you. I don’t know how I could have made it through without Jason for one of our girls (daily IVs at the house if you can imagine). Oh, can cats have peanut butter? That’s what we use to get our pups to take meds. Hugs girl! I hope the vet can figure out what’s wrong. Maybe a 2nd opinion perhaps…
June 16, 2010 at 8:16 am
thank you so much Heather, I am sure it was VERY hard with your dogs too. I can just imagine. I don’t think Nala would eat PB, but I am going to try the cream cheese trick (she LOVES that stuff) today, and see how she does. My vet is awesome, we’ve used him for all of our pets over the years, my whole family, so I do trust him, but we’ll see. I am open to second opinion if needed.
June 16, 2010 at 8:19 am
I’m thinking of you and Nala. Pooh Bear was feeling much better but he seems to have gone back again. I know what you mean, I just wish I could fix him myself. It sounds like your vet is able and willing to help. So glad you have someone working on Nala’s behalf!
June 16, 2010 at 8:58 am
Aw, I’m sorry to hear that about Pooh Bear, I hope he’s okay too. My vet is really good, he’s always open to talking after hours, if he doesn’t get a chance to call me back, and he said if this were his cat, he’d be doing it the way we are, so that makes me feel good.
June 16, 2010 at 11:09 am
((hugs))
Sending you strength.
June 16, 2010 at 11:52 am
thanks T…I’ll take all I can get. You guys are so awesome.
June 16, 2010 at 1:44 pm
Hey – if I can give Bells pills when she is sick, you can handle Nala. You got this and she’ll be better before you know it. XOXO
June 16, 2010 at 6:40 pm
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June 17, 2010 at 12:50 pm
I heart Scott.
And Nala of course. HUGS darlin.
June 17, 2010 at 12:58 pm
thank you so much! Hugs back atcha.