Those were some of the words Doctor Boy used in the card he sent me within the bouquet of flower (and teddy bear!) he sent me yesterday (timed to my return from wine country, and the day after he left for Aruba).
The rest of that sentence goes something like this: “…a token reminder of my immense feelings for you…I care about you very much.”
Wow. I never thought I’d see or hear those words uttered about me (though always hoped!) and ya know what? I feel exactly the same way about him. It still feels right. All of it. The pace of things (steady progress, not too fast, not too slow). The feelings I have for him. How I feel when I am with him, when I hear his voice or see a picture of him. How much I miss him (going on two weeks since I’ve seen him, with my trip and now his) And how he reacts to me. Upfront. Honest. Very open about how he’s feeling.
This is what I have been waiting for. This feels right. It scares me no longer. Not at all. It is all starting to feel like that next stage I was looking for. I’m entering it. Just as I turn 31. Just as I near my two year separation-versary from Pete.
Swoon.
Like whoa.
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In other news…my sister is progressing, starting to improve, though it is indeed going to take a good six weeks or so for more ofย a full recovery. She has constant hospital appointments and wound care procedures. But she has proven to me just how strong and faithful she is. I’m blown away by her strength and resilience. As much as she gets knocked down, she gets up even stronger the next. Yes, she’s fragile. Emotionally. Mentally. Physically. But she’s taking one step at a time.
There are some other things at play that I won’t go into detail here, that are adding much more of a mental and emotional test for her and I pray that we can collectively help improve that situation. So for now, I’ll leave it this: thank you all for the continued thoughts and prayers. They mean the world to me, and to her as well.
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Also, a quick shout-out to one of my bestest…Kristen (who I’ve blogged about before, as she’s also divorced. We went through it around the same time) – she launched a new blog and it is hysterical! My Life in 15 Minute Increments. Check it out ๐
October 11, 2010 at 1:37 pm
Soooo happy for you girl. You deserve this 100%!!! Also glad to hear your sister is improving. I know that has to be weighing on you.
October 11, 2010 at 1:53 pm
thanks friend ๐ He’s simply awesome. And thanks for the words about my sis. It really is weighing on me.
October 16, 2010 at 3:19 pm
Cosigned. Heartily :).
October 11, 2010 at 1:50 pm
So happy for you! I am loving how open Doctor Boy is!
Happy to hear your sis is improving, but I’ll still keep you all in my thoughts.
October 11, 2010 at 1:54 pm
thank you! I love the openness too. Always knowing where you stand. Sis is improving, all we can hope for, right?
October 11, 2010 at 2:44 pm
wow. swoon indeed. the right guy makes all the difference.
and i’m still thinking of your sister. glad to know she’s doing better!
October 12, 2010 at 12:54 pm
The right guys makes ALL the difference as far as I’m concerned. And thank you for the thoughts for my sis.
October 11, 2010 at 5:41 pm
I continue to be so happy for you and the “new” guy!! I love seeing this story unfold.
October 12, 2010 at 12:55 pm
thank you so much friend!
October 11, 2010 at 5:41 pm
p.s. I was incredibly jealous of your wine trip!!!
October 12, 2010 at 12:55 pm
๐ you should definitely go!!
October 11, 2010 at 6:17 pm
oh this gave me the chills! i am just so happy for you!
October 12, 2010 at 12:55 pm
aww you are the sweetest friend, love the chills ๐
October 11, 2010 at 6:39 pm
Glad to hear that things are continuing to go well for you and Doctor Boy. This makes me smile for you – huge. ๐
October 12, 2010 at 12:56 pm
thank you!! So sweet. I love the smiles and the support, you all rock!
October 11, 2010 at 8:05 pm
Swoon.
Yes – I’m “swooning” FOR you and doctor boy. I love, love, LOVE it!!! ๐
October 12, 2010 at 12:56 pm
thank you sis – swoon away…just don’t let Scott get jealous ;-P kidding!
October 12, 2010 at 12:22 am
Aw, I’m so glad things are going so well with Doctor Boy. He sounds absolutely wonderful for you!
And your sister is in my prayers, that she continues to stay strong.
October 12, 2010 at 12:56 pm
thank you!! Things are pretty wonderful in the boy department. Hoping the stuff with my sister starts to improve too.
October 12, 2010 at 6:12 am
Yay! Immense feelings! I’m so happy for you.
Big hugs.
October 12, 2010 at 12:57 pm
thank you friend! Can’t wait to catch up on Thurs!
October 12, 2010 at 9:51 am
Happy to see another update on DocBoy. It’s been weeks since I’ve seen you swoon! I was getting worried that things were just holding steady at awesome.
Good to know he’s still in the picture and there’s room in your life for both him AND wine. ๐
October 12, 2010 at 12:58 pm
Weeks since swoonage, yes, at least talking about it ๐ And well, since we haven’t seen each other in weeks, that’s probably part of it too. But he’s good at swoonage from afar too. Can I say swoonage one more time? And yes, there’s plenty of room for both!! ๐
October 12, 2010 at 10:29 am
Jolene,
Very happy for you and inspired by the Doctor Boy progression. I am seeing someone too, but not feeling that “so right” feeling that you are, so I’m jealous!
I hope that your sister continues to make quick progress.
October 12, 2010 at 12:59 pm
thank you!! Things are finally right, after so many not-so-much dates, it’s good to finally feel THIS!
October 12, 2010 at 12:22 pm
So glad to hear this. You both are going to be so excited to see each other when he gets back from Aruba …
October 12, 2010 at 12:59 pm
We certainly are. I’m looking forward to seeing him again ๐
October 12, 2010 at 12:22 pm
Well deserved. Enjoy the honesty. Nurture it. Communicate. Trust. Love.
Still praying for your sis and family.
October 12, 2010 at 1:00 pm
thank you so much. Great words of advice. Simple, but so so true.
October 14, 2010 at 3:37 am
Long time no “see!” I’ve been dying to see how you are doing. I’m so excited for you that things have progressed nicely with doctor boy. I hope to be around more often again now and my mind is starting to create my new blog. I will keep you up to date. Again, so happy for you!
October 14, 2010 at 9:04 am
Aw, thanks for dropping in! Can’t wait to read your new blog! And things are progressing very nicely, I am really happy about it, clearly ๐